gahhh thank god its almost may.

cuz MAY is wonderful

WEDNESDAY is HEATHER'S BIRTHDAY! and i get to skip school and hang out with my best friend.

this weekend im going to TWO concerts. mmm. exciting.

MAY 13TH is my final GMYSO concert. wow. its weird that its my last.

MAY 15TH IS AP TESTS!!!!!!!!!!!! and then when those are over i can breath a huge sigh of relief and do nothing in 2 of my classes. although i am not pleased with whoever decided to put the chem and psych test in the same day.

i can pick up my prom dress MAY 16TH. sweet. and then prom is MAY 25. AND I CANT WAIT. my prom dress is pretty. i just saw it for the first time yesterday.

and then the day after that is SIX FLAGS DAY.

anddd then shortly after all this. i graduate. sweet deal.

i hate it when people dont get what im trying to say

it frustrates me

i love applesause

and the color green

oh yah. and i hate myspace. because it just teaches people to find ways around real communication. before you know it, no one will be talking to eachother. onlyl through myspace. its just a way for people to have 2 personalities. who needs that? one personality is enough.

i think aim is the same way. and any form of communicating via the internet. or even txt messages. gotta love it when people dont have the guts to say something to your face so they argue with you via aim or txt message. like i said, in the future, people will no longer be able to hold real conversations. or they will, they will just be akward. cuz you cant type what your gonna say, pause, think about it, and then hit the backspace a bunch of times. sometimes the most truthful things people say just come out. and thats ok. cuz who wants liars?

its also just creepy. i just find it creepy that you can find almost anyone on myspace and then they will know all this shit about you. thats just weird. there are probably a bunch of people out there that know a lot more about me than id like them to. thats what TALKING is for. getting to know a person. ya know. the old fashion way. maybe i dont have much of an issue with random people knowing random stuff about me cuz i have the privacy setting. but if i didnt. thats just weird? because i have the privacy setting on i get sooo many random friend requests from people who dont even reside in this state. thats just CREEPY. im sorry i like my privacy.

but hey. i really shouldnt talk. cuz i have one. even though originally i didnt want one but jessie and liz made me. but thats just an excuse. i still have one. and i use it. and hey, sometimes its cool. cuz you can keep in touch with people who you never see anymore. but i also like to have real conversations with people.

will any one have a real conversation with me?

Currently Reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower By Stephen Chbosky see related

i hate spring

seriously. worst season ever. its wet, and usually on the cold side, and it rains a lot. and nothing looks pretty. everything looks dead for a while. and its kinda depressing.

and then comes summer. and the best part about summer is between the hours of 5am and 10am. im crazy i know. but after that its too hot.

and then everything about winter and fall is amazing. except the weeks in winter when it just decides not to snow and its cold for no reason. which was pretty much the winter this year.

right about now im wishing i didnt apply to six schools. don't ever do that. its bad.

i SUCK at making decisions.

someone else do it for me.

boston university, syracuse university, UNH, or university of colorado. just throw in university of rochester and carneige mellon, just in case i get in. and thats the other thing, i just want my last 2 schools to send me my letter. so i can make a decision. and not have to worry about this anymore.

ps you should all read the perks of being a wallflower. if you havent already. i just want a charlie to follow me around and tell me the things i didnt notice. i feel like he would improve the quality of my life.

loveeeeeeeee

 beauty and the beast was always one of my favorite disney movies.

and i really like huge boxes of crayola crayons. an d jessie makes fun of me when i say crayons. or maybe its something else i say that she makes fun of. i dont know.

i know that my favorite part about those boxes of crayons is when they are brand new and all sharp. when they start loosing their sharpness they lose their appeal.

im going here in a week. theres like 10 feet of snow there. which is more than we've had all year. im excited for lots of snow. and skiing. and ice skating. and winter fun. with snow.

i love winter

those little specks are mel and i. we like to ski.

oh yah. and shes coming. along with her family. and a bunch of other people.

its weird thinking that picture was taken 4 years ago. when we were freshman. and now we're seniors. and we're graduating in like 60 something days.